Thursday, January 20, 2011

Well Hello Again

I haven't posted here in a while. Figured I probably should get back in the habit. So life has been pretty busy lately. I am finishing up my last online class with APU wahoo (I will be so glad to be done with that place) and I got a temporary job at JCPenny just to pass the time and bring in some cash for the holidays. It makes time go by pretty quickly which is good. Well a lot has happened lets see where to begin.
My parents came out for the weekend before Thanksgiving and it was so nice to have them here and for them to see where we are living and all of that jazz. We kept it pretty simple. Went to a really pretty beach called Point No Point and went into Seattle one day. The day that we happened to go to Seattle was the first snow storm that has hit the area in about 2 years. It pretty much shut down the city. It took us around 8 hours to drive 15 miles. The worst part was that we were on our way to the airport to drop off my parents. Needless to say they missed their flight and had to spend the night at the airport because they didn't expect the roads to be in any better condition in the morning. It was sad to see them leave but I was thankful that they were able to come out. Then Josh and I did lots of hanging out around here and got more settled in.
For Christmas it was just us two and I was a little bit nervous about that but it actually worked out well. We went to Church on Christmas Eve and then Christmas morning we opened our presents and went over to Ryan and Morgans for breakfast then came home and just hung out. Then later that night we attempted to eat dinner, but I burnt it. BAD. So we had frozen pizza. Classy! One thing that I love about Josh is that he didn't care. He didn't make a big deal of it. We got ourselves all packed for our big adventure the following day then headed back over to Ryan and Morgans to play some games. We met Ryan's mom and had a blast playing apple to apples. It was fun!
The next day I worked until 2 30 then I came home and packed up and we loaded up in the car and drove down to San Diego. Yes Drove not Flew. The reason being was that airfare was ridiculously over priced, so that we could have our own set of wheels while in town, and to cart Christmas presents there and back and our gifts from the baby shower. It was a good call to drive but it sure was a long one. Josh did most of the driving. As soon as he let me take over for a while, no joke like 5 miles down the road it said be prepared for snow and ice. Now I'm from San Diego so I have no idea how to drive in those conditions...and Josh doesn't like being a passenger anyways let alone when I am nervous about driving. So while the gesture was nice I think I lasted about an hour. haha. I drove again later in the morning but for the most part I rode and slept. OOps. Its the baby...she makes me oh so sleepy.
While we were in San Diego we ate at Jaliscos a lot of course! We celebrated Christmas late with my family. It was kind of nice having the holidays prolonged. It slowed it all down so we could truly enjoy it all instead of rushing around. We had  dinner one night with my dad's side of the family where Grandma convinced everyone that we were having a talent show. Aunt Debbie volunteered to go first and she did the Mickey Mouse dance, Aunt Cathy went home and got her tap shoes and did a performance, my grandma sang a seductive song, my parents did the robot. It was AWESOME! we have it all on video tape so don't be sad if you missed it! Then for those of us who opted out of doing the talent show we placed a cookie on our foreheads and had to slide it down and try to catch it in our mouths without using our hands! I sure do love my family. I love that we can be dorks together and no one judges...
The rest of the time we were down there flew by so fast. It stank. I also got sick which was a bummer. I was out of commission for a few days. I was even sick for my baby shower, but it was still a blast. It was great seeing everyone. It had been far too long. We ate some delicious food of course and then Josh and I were blessed as we received many of the things that we need to be ready for little Makenzie! I didn't have much time to see friends while home which was sad, but I will be returning and next time I will have a little one in tow. CRAZY! As we wrapped up our time and got ready to head back to WA it was a sad day. We drove up to the border of CA and OR and stopped for the night and then made the rest of the journey the following day. You will be proud to know that this time I drove for a total of like 3 hours. Go me! haha. We are now back home and getting all of our gifts set up and settled in place. We have a few more things that we need to order in order to be completely ready for the little one but we still have some time.
Not much though. We have 6 weeks left! Time is going to fly by. The plan is for me to work for the next four and take the last two off just to have time to get everything ready and relax before life changes so drastically. I also am looking forward to my mom and sister visiting. They are coming up for my Mom's bday. They will be here for 4 days and I am beyond excited! Then we will be able to see more of our family as they come out to meet little Makenzie. It won't be long.
Well that my friends is a summary of what life has looked like up here in cold rainy Washington. i will try to be better about updating this more often...I love you all! Have a blessed night!

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Our Trials

I have waited to post this for a few reasons. One being that it is a VERY sensitive subject matter, Two I wanted to know how it would be resolved, and Three to give myself and Josh time to process what we were going through and wait until we were comfortable sharing our trials and tribulations.
So, on the 5th of October we went in to the hospital for a routine ultrasound, and although we were disappointed that we couldn't know for certain that day whether we were having a boy or a girl yet, we were still overjoyed that there was a healthy little munchkin growing inside of me. Our next appointment was not scheduled for another 2 or so weeks which would be a routine follow up. During the course of these two weeks I spent some time in San Diego with my wonderful family and had a great time. I "officially" felt little Makenzie wiggle around inside of me and was sooo happy. I just couldn't wait until Josh could feel her as well. As I have said before, I think that is one really cool thing that the guys miss out on during pregnancy. I'm sure they are not jealous about having to carry them around for nine months or about having to push a little baby out of them, but I wish for Josh that he could feel what it feels like to have her move around inside of me. Anyways, I digress. Sorry.
So, I returned home on Tues and had an appointment on Thursday. We arrived in the morning not knowing what to expect. Well we thought we knew what to expect, being weighed, having my blood pressure taken, listening to her heart beat, and the usual. Little did we know, we were about to be hit by a BOMB. Our doctor whom I love, but temporarily hated sat down and casually started talking with us. All I remember hearing are the words; cyst, benign, downs syndrome, tests, fetal specialists...to name a few. WHAT? The tears immediately started flowing, talk about being ripped from cloud nine and sent straight down to hell...Wow. I still get emotional thinking about that time. So what she explained to us was that the ultrasound tech had spotted a choroid plexus cyst on the baby's brain. She explained that this cyst was benign. My understanding was that if something is benign then that means that it could be malignant, cancer, excuse me? But I was mistaken. Her meaning of the word benign meant that alone this cyst was not dangerous. She then continued to explain that this could possibly be an indicator that our little girl could be born with Downs. Not that she would be but that she could be. They were going to have to conduct some blood work to see whether or not this was a real possibility. We asked if there was a percentage rate that we were looking at but she couldn't provide us with one because there is no real way of knowing. The doctor tried to reassure us as best as she could, but honestly I was still stuck on the possibility that our little girl could have Downs. We returned home later that night and started talking about our future and what decisions we would make. We knew that no matter what Josh and I were bringing a life into this world and nothing could change our love that we already feel for this little girl. We also knew that it would not be the end of the world if she did have Downs, we were strong and confident that the Lord did not give us more than we could handle. We really came together, and honestly I feel more and more in love with Josh that night as we were able to draw together in such a vulnerable time where we were sad, hurt, mad, hopeful, a little bit of everything. We had our fair share of tears but we knew what we had to do. WE had to place our hope and our faith in God, and trust that His perfect will be done. We laid little Makenzie, ever so tiny at his feet and trusted in Him.
We had to wait a week for the results of the blood work to come back and what a long week that was. Man oh man. I had moments of peace that surpassed all of my understanding that I know were solely from the Lord, and I had moments overwhelmed with fear and hurt and frustrations as well. The doctor called me the following Tuesday and told me that the results of the test came back negative which indicated that the levels of all the hormones in my blood and in the baby were normal. PRAISE GOD! I all but jumped up and down. I called Josh and told him right away and we were soooooo overwhelmed. Because there was only one "marker" and the blood results came back negative the doctor does not suspect that little Makenzie will have Downs. We will go in this Wed for a follow up ultrasound where they will look specifically and carefully for any other indicators, and then I will go in on Friday to go over the results of the Ultrasound. So I do ask for continued prayer and that God's perfect will be done with our little girl!
I will keep you all posted, but felt that it was time to share some of our journey with our friends so that we may all pray more specifically even though our God knows it all. I sooo appreciate your prayers and your support. I also share this so that if any one ever goes through this or has gone through this you know that you are not alone and that I would be happy to talk to any and all of you! Thank you for taking time to read this. I know it is quite lengthy and quite shocking to some. Please don't feel offended that I did not share this with you personally, I was protecting myself and my family and knew that when the time was right I would be able to. So thank you for the continued prayer! I love you all!
On a much lighter and happier note, Josh finally felt Makenzie move the other night. We were laying in bed and he had his hand on my stomach and could feel some little movements (I think it was my own heart beat but I didn't want to make him sad) but then all of a sudden I think little Makenzie was stretching out and getting comfy for the night and gave one big kick and I felt his hand move on top of my stomach. It was beyond exciting. He was like, "Holy cow! That was crazy!" It was a pretty neat moment to share together. Alright enough for now. Time to go and relax this tired back of mine! Love to you all!

Monday, October 25, 2010

Makenzie Kaylynn

We have decided that our little muchkin on the way shall be named Makenzie Kaylynn. I love the name. I am so excited, and it feels so good to be able to give the baby that is growing inside of me a name. That way now when I talk to her I can call her by her name. I do talk to her all of the time. It is awesome. Josh really liked the name Makenzie. We won't tell our little princess to be that she is named after a hunting target. haha. and Kaylynn came from a road trip with my amazing sister. We were headed up the coast and stopped in Solvang. As we were eating dinner I saw this candle shop and it was called Kaylin's candles or something of the sort. I really liked the name A LOT. A few minutes later I liked it even more when I realized that it has special meaning behind it as well. Kay is my sister's middle name and Lynn is my mom's. So I am changing the spelling to Kaylynn. I love it love it love it.
I had thought that I had felt her move for a while, but wasn't sure. Everyone told me that it felt like a gas bubble but I never really paid attention to what they felt like in the past. Then someone told me that it feels like a little flutter in your stomach and that is exactly what I felt. As I was home with my family as I laid down at night I felt this weird feeling in my stomach and concluded that it must be little Makenzie stretching out, and the next morning she got the hang of it and I could feel her moving around a bunch. It is still a little surreal that something, rather someone is growing inside of me! So cool. This is where I feel like the guys miss out. Josh has yet to feel her move but I'm sure he will in the near future. She now moves around quite often, especially when I am sitting over the computer. I can hear her in my head, "Um excuse me mom, could you stop hunching over like that...I'm trying to relax here and not be cramped." Haha. I have also officially popped. I will post pictures soon! It is fun! Well that is the update I have now. I was just reminded that it is already 7 and we haven't yet eaten dinner. oops. back to my wifely duties and away from the computer I go. I shall write more later.
Please pray for little Makenzie as you think of her. That God's perfect plan would be carried out for her life! Love you all!

Thursday, October 7, 2010

The Little Munchkin is officially a Little GIRL!

Oh my word. It has been an eventful week that is for sure! Last Saturday was our one year anniversary. It is crazy to think that it has already been a year. But then again when I think about all that has happened in that year that it becomes a bit more believable. The day was awesome. I woke up and took the Dukester for a walk and then made some breakfast. Then my hubby told me to get ready and so I did. He took me to the huge mall that is like an hour or so away and let me go on a shopping spree! Are you kidding me? Awesome gift!!! We went to H &M cause the store there has a maternity section. I was able to snag a pair of comfy cute pants and some cute shirts! Then thanks to a guy at Josh's shop we were told about this place called Whiskey Creek and it was delicious. It's a little steak house down the way. Simply amazing! Josh got me tickets to go see Jeremy Camp and Mercy Me when they were here and it was an amazing show! He also surprised me with flowers! They are beautiful! He has really wanted a golf cart one to push his clubs around on so that is what I got him and he was really excited! It was a great day! Then we just went home and cuddled and watched movies. I love cuddling with that man!
So after our anniversary was over we had an appointment on Tues morning for an 18 week ultrasound where we were going to find out what the Little Munchkin was. Oh man. What a disaster. First of all they don't want you to pee for like an hour before your appointment while drinking like 5 glasses of water...are you kidding me...and then they push down on your belly and bladder--super uncomfortable. haha. But I was too excited to really care. Josh was able to get off early so he could go with me so we got ourselves situated in the room and were on pins and needles waiting to hear the exciting news. The ultrasound tech was ridiculous. She whispered so I couldn't hear anything she was saying which was annoying I kept asking her to repeat herself. She then pressed a button and we heard a noise so I was like, "Oh my gosh was that the heart beat?" I didn't know...she didn't tell me it was coming or let us enjoy it. It was on and off...just like that. Ugh whatever. It could have been such an exciting time but slowly and surely she diminished our excitement. It seemed like just a job to her. Here we are talking about bringing a life into this world and it seemed like she was simply waiting for her lunch break. Irritating. So she began to look to see if it was a he or she...she says to us, "Well um...I don't really think I see anything...so i think...i mean i guess its a girl??????" What you guess? What I'm thinking is woman--does it have a penis or not--I mean that is what it boils down to. So I asked her to check again before we were all done and she said no cause she was "pretty" sure. Ugh. Then she has the nerves to ask us if we are going shopping. No you dumb broad you can't even tell us what we are having what in the world are we going to go shopping for...I was beyond irritated. So we went upstairs to see when our next ultrasound was...turns out they don't offer anymore. Lame. So we found out there is this clinic where you can pay 75 bucks to find out what you are having. So I called to set up an appointment and surprise surprise you need a note from your doctor...so I kinda did a little fibbing and convinced the doctor to give me a note...lol...so I went down on Wednesday (Josh's birthday) to find out what we are for sure having. Josh was unable to get out again so Sara and Jaime drove down with me.
What a different experience this was! It was pleasant! Wow...what a shocker. The woman was super sweet and talked through everything that she was doing and was beyond helpful...she checked like 6 times just to be sure..and it is in fact a Little Girl! so exciting. She took some cute little pictures. It is just so surreal to watch the little baby move around inside of me. I can't wait till I can start to feel it! That will be even better! So Josh was able to find out on his 25th birthday that he will be a Daddy to a little girl! So fun! He has told me since we started dating that he wanted to be married and have a baby by the time he was 25 and it turns out that his wishes are coming true! We went out for a birthday celebration dinner at the wonderful Olive Garden and then we went to Kohl's to look at some baby clothes cause now we could go shopping! Oh my word it was hard to choose! I can see why they say babies are sooo expensive. There are so many darn cute outfits! I also see why people say accept pass me downs. haha. It was fun to shop for our little girl! So like I mentioned it was a crazy exciting week with not lots of sleep for me...so I look forward to catching up on some much needed sleep this weekend and some R & R with my hubby! I'm glad that it ended up being an exciting week and finding out that we have a healthy little baby girl on the way! PS while we were watching her on the tv she kept opening and closing her mouth...so cute and rubbing her face! The doc said she is going to have some chubby cheeks...I can't wait to kiss all over them! Well I shall go for now! Love you all!

Monday, September 20, 2010

Camping!!!

The top of Sol Duc Falls!
Our campsite!
Thank God we bought that canopy!
Cool shot of the fog!
Group Shot. Duke kept looking away...
Cheers- don't worry folks my drink is the water
We had to cook dinner underneath the tent because it was raining so hard
Hiking up to the falls! What a beautiful sight! Glad I didn't venture on too much further!
The boys feeling high and mighty!
We went camping this last weekend at the beautiful Sol Duc campground! It was a blast even though it rained the entire time. I sure am glad that we bought a canopy and that we had rain gear. It was so much fun to get away and go and spend some time in nature. We went with Ryan and Morgan and ARod and the little pups. They had such a great time. I realy enjoyed myself. I will be adding some other pictures soon!

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Settling Down...

Life has seem to be settling down lately which I must admit is nice. It is nice to just relax and breathe and watch tv and hang out. Josh is getting settled at work and believe it or not we finally were able to see a doctor. It's about time. We were assigned a midwife-that's how they do it here, and she came in and checked everything and it was said that everything looked fine which was a nice relief. We then got to see the little munchkin on the ultrasound and it was pretty surreal. It was weird to think that that little tiny baby was growing inside of me...crazy. so we were told that we can come back on Oct 5th at 9 am to find out the sex of the baby. That will be an exciting time in our lives.
This weekend Josh and I are going to go camping. We are heading out with Ryan, Morgan and ARod...Sara is back home with Jamie for a while. We will also be bringing along the three little pups with us. It said it is supposed to rain this weekend, but who knows. We will have fun regardless. We are also coming up on our 1 year anniversary. I am beyond excited. We have been asking around for ideas for what to do...and have heard a couple good ones so hopefully we will find something that we both enjoy doing.
The other day we had some more marriage bonding (as some of you know the first time we had designated time to bond we waxed josh's truck) and this time we went golfing. He is getting back into it and so I went and rode around on the golf cart with him while he played. Haha. I am looking forward to my time to plan some marriage bonding time. haha. Well we have to run to the store to get ready for the camping trip. I shall see you soon my friends!

Thursday, September 9, 2010

I'm Back!!!

Oh man I haven't known what to do with myself with no internet, but no need to fear because it is finally hooked up. So to catch up...where do I begin. We moved into our place on Wed the 25th and our stuff came on the 26th. The 25th we were busy getting what we had with us situated and painting. Well Josh painted and I watched. We have a red wall in the kitchen, two gray walls in the living room and will eventually have a green wall in our bedroom. Then on Thurs we worked long and hard getting stuff put away. It actually felt good. It felt like this place was becoming our new home. So then we treated ourselves to the Luke Bryan concert that night at the fair with Ryan and Morgan. So much fun! We still have some boxes to unpack but they are dwindling down. Josh reported back to work on the 1st which was a wake up call for Mr. 30 days of leave. He has been introduced to everyone in the shop so far and says that it is a lot different than the ship. Duke is adjusting well. He hangs out with me and we go on walks around the neighborhood or to the dog park. The other morning he scared me. As I let him out to go to the bathroom he decided to chase after the two deer that were grazing by our neighbors house...I had to call after him and chase him to get him to come back...then all day he sat by the door and cried because he wanted to go play with the deer. haha. We have made a few purchases which we are excited about. We bought a crock pot (so if you have any receipes feel free to send them my way) and a washer and dryer, a dining room table and other little knick knacks for around the house. I love living here so far. It has been a huge blessing.  We are also excited we get cable tomorrow...so far we have just watched a lot of movies from the RedBox. haha.
We have spent a lot of time with our friends. We were blessed. Josh worked with Ryan down in San Diego they were on the same ship and he and his wife and litle dog live up here and they have been a huge help in adjusting and helping us get to know the place. Josh also worked with Sara and ARod in San Diego and they have a little girl Jaime and a small dog as well, so it has been fun to get to know them and spend time with them. Sara is a few weeks farther along than I am so that has also been neat because I am able to ask her any questions that I may have.
I do miss my family. I can't wait to see them. We are trying to figure out when exactly that will happen, but believe me I am looking forward to it! Well thats it for now...I have to get back to my list of goals for the day...dealing with APU being number 1....eww.